Friday, 29 January 2010


Gained parental praise
with academic accolades.

Explored careers,
love and spiritual crusades.

Autumn time.
Skills harvest, but
procrastination invades.

Is wintertime
a barren place,
legacy of blank charades?

Sunday, 17 January 2010

My husband believes in me!

One great big kick up the back side I think. We were discussing future plans and I suggested that I go back to work to contribute to that future, but my darling wants me to give myself one more year to pursue my writing dreams. Help, that feels scary but maybe the push I need to stop dithering in the shadows and get out there.

At least with decisions made, even if we change them over time, I can stop this frozen feeling and get stuck in.

I had a weird dream last night, my office was in a cafe and people from my past kept discovering me there and giving me, verbally, pieces of a jig-saw. I don’t remember if I finally solved the puzzle, but it felt almost as if I was given absolution from many different aspects of my life. Maybe the release I need to finally move forward and be who I am meant to be?

Wednesday, 13 January 2010

The Value of Good Friends

I had a girlie lunch today with five friends. We laughed, we talked, we sang and we combined energy and I believe all felt better as a result. I am grateful to have friends with whom I can let my hair down, be silly, be sad, say naughty things and cry if I need to. The value of this is not to be underestimated.

Yet how do we come to meet these friends? Chance encounters? Energetic resonance? Past life recognition? I firmly believe that the friends I have at the moment are part of my soul group.

Gratitude is something which is lightening my heart at the moment, I am grateful for so many things in my life. This has an added benefit, because when I am grateful for so much, little niggles do not seem to have quite so much impact. The maxim “what you focus on expands” comes to mind or my favourite “red car theory”, so if I focus on gratitude I will find even more to be grateful for. This may sound sugary sweet but it seems to work so don’t knock it and maybe join in!

Monday, 4 January 2010

Back to School

The Christmas decorations are down and suddenly the house looks bigger and cleaner. I miss their sparkle, but I'm enjoying the space created by their absence. In fact, it reminds me of a book on my son’s bookshelf “A Squash and a Squeeze”. It’s the one where the old lady complains her house is too small and is told to invite a variety of farm animals to live with her. When they all leave, her house seems massive. There must be a moral in there somewhere.

It is the time of year for New Year’s resolutions but I didn’t specifically make any this year. I am trying to improve things all the time these days and my 1-20 monthly wish list is fine for me. ‘Doing more of the same’ could summarise my desire for the year. I think I’ll add to this ‘doing more things outside of my comfort zone’ as I have become a bit of a scardy cat when it comes to travelling and adventurous holidays.

My perspectives are changing. I would have loved deep snow during the holiday period, as it would have meant lots of play with my son. However, I now find myself dreading it on the weather forecast, as it would complicate the school run. Back to routines tomorrow. Setting the alarm, ironing school uniform and cleaning always muddy school shoes. Still it will mean more time for me and writing. 2010 feels like it could be a good year.